Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -

I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom

I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom -

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache,the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Life Music

I was driving around yesterday with the windows down and the music UP! I realize that I do not come across as a music person at all. I'm not up to date on bands, don't know what the hottest thing out there is unless it's on Q100 between 7 and 9 AM. What I do know is that I have about 5 - 10 key bands that I stick with, some of which is country music!

So I have some more songs to blog that are my key of life music. I love how songs remind me of people or situations in my life. Here are a few...


These songs are for the men who have impacted my life in some way. There were good times and tragic endings, there was comfort and friendship. There was, above all, emotion and care. Which we all needed. You learn something from everyone who touches your life. I don't regret much, but I do regret some.

Keith Urban - Stupid Boy (this applies to most of the guys I've met!)

Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah (can't hear this song without thinking of you, J.)

Sugarland - Stay (again, J... wow what a ride...)

Matchbox 20 - Push (the story of my life, never has a song captured my own world in such a way.... I refuse to be pushed around anymore)